I photographed this body of work in Arles, France in the Spring of 2018. It was where I departed from the more photojournalistic way of capturing moments objectively and from a neutral point of view. Instead, I explored my painful memories, psychological and physical trauma, uncovering raw emotions that seem to bring forth more questions than answers. This has led to a freer approach to the way I photograph. It has now become a personal journey where I have a strong point of view, I am figuratively and literally in my photographs. When I don’t feel a little bit afraid of what I will uncover, I know the images are probably not going work.
I was constantly investigating, uncovering and searching from the past, at the same time aware of my emotions and feelings at every turn. With every press of the shutter, I would feel deeply, experimenting, getting closer to my subjects and myself at the same time. Once that intimate connection was formed I would adjust to those places inside me that I usually fear to go.
We tend to see memories as what happened in the past. For me, Anamnesis is a way that the events are made present again. I become more aware, more understanding and freer as I grow into this new way of seeing and photographing the world.